I wanted to be honest to everyone so that prayers continue and also for those that are behind us in their own journey, escecially the mommy's can prepare for their own feelings. Last night was pretty bad for me. I ,cried and cried and got on my knees and prayed. I felt lost, scared, homesick and seriously felt like I was having a panic attack, in which I have never had. Joe has been the absolute best husband, I know if he could he would take the feelings I have away. I know why we are here, I know Olga will die one day soon if we do not save her. I just wish these feelings would stop. I talked with my sister Amy last night and she prayed with me on the phone, I also spoke with Karrie and she had alot of encouraging words for me. I was also excited to see the kids on skype and happy to know they are having alot of fun.
The only thing I can come up with is that I need that court date, I need to be able to count down the days till Im home again. So please pray we are told our court date friday. And the countdown can begin. Im def. not a world traveler. Ive come to that conclusion quickly. Im hoping once we go to the orphange and get to see her I will be on a mission at that point.
Thanks for listening...will post tomorrow